The Darkness in the Ocean

The anguish comes in waves for the woman

The biggest crashes are when the children cry out

Innocent and unknowing

Yet she would rather be the rock on the shore

Being pummeled by the cold unrelenting waves

Then to be the woman who was lost at sea

In the sea it was dark and cold

There was no refuge and no where to swim too

Yet the woman never swam out to the darkness willingly

There was a man who lured her to the sea

He purposively lured her into the ocean where it was bleak and black

He liked the woman surrounded by darkness

The dark was cold and numbed her heart and soul

And slowly it distorted her entire reality

She followed him into the dark because he promised her his light

He had convinced her that she had no light on her own

The moment he sensed he had her far enough from the shore

That is when he left her drowning

Taking with him what little light he ever gave her

She was unable to see anything and the coldness slowly numbed her body and mind

There were days she thought she would disappear completely

The man always knew when the darkness was about to envelop the woman completely

Those were the moments that he would jump in and give her just a little light

It was always just enough light to keep her physical body alive

The terrified woman was so happy to see the light

She didn’t notice that the light he gave was lessening each time

Slowly the man was conditioning the woman to become comfortable in the dark

He never intended to love the woman

The light that the man gave was never the light of love

It was control and hatred that fuelled him

His light was fractured and skewed

Dull and lifeless

Eventually the woman would get the strength within

To question what little light the man gave

It was those moments that he would turn the light out completely

She was always so terrified to be back in the world of darkness and demons

That she convinced herself to enjoy the small amounts of ominous light he gave her

Maybe if she began to see things the way he wanted

He would eventually spare her more moments of light

But the man never did

And one fateful day the woman realized the man never would give her anything more then darkness

Not only did he control the light

He intentionally tried to steal the woman’s light from herself

So hecould capture her and slowly siphon her light for himself

Unfortunately for the man

That light that he tried so hard to put out

Was always living within the woman, and never died out completely

For even when the woman’s mind was convinced her light was gone

Deep down her soul knew better

The woman swam in the darkness towards the shore

Barely making it alive onto the sand

But she did

And that is where she continues to lay

Exhausted and depleted

Feeling each cold crash upon her mind and body

Crashes so hard she often feels she can’t continue

That she should turn around and drown in the sea once and for all

But then she remembers how she saved herself from the darkness

So she prays to God and she vows to take those crashes

So she can continue to shine her light

In hopes that other women will see it from the sea

And it will give them the courage to swim towards the shore

So they to can escape the darkness in the ocean